This is what it was like, before Fern House. My story is not much differ that any of yours. My day began with a hangover, I went to work, and drank at night. In the beginning, I thought I could handle it, but very quickly, I began not going to work, and drinking all day. I found myself in bars at night, cheating on my wife, and going broke. As a result, my wife left, and I was broke. I did odd jobs to keep my drinking going, but that was it. My first DUI was a slap on the wrist, and 30 days at Fern House. When I left after 30 days Bernard says to me “I’ll see you again”… I laughed and said “not a chance”. I was wrong!!! 2 years later, I got drunk at my sisters wedding and all hell broke loose. The next morning, I looked up and asked God to take this away. As I was on my way to see a friend, I got pulled over, and taken to jail. While put on a furlough, I went to Fern House, and tried to escape the jail ” knowing full well in my mind I still didn’t have a problem “. As a result, Bernard went back to court, and Bernard BEGGED the prosecuter to let me go to Fern House, and they agreed. I don’t know when it happened, but somewhere in my scared crazy, and messed up life, I found that I was ENJOYING my sobriety. I had a sponsor, a program, and my life started taking shape again, through Fern House. When my 9 months was over, I was scared to death! I asked, Bernard what do I do now? In my exit interview with the staff, and residents, Bernard told me something I’ll never forget. ” Eric, go live your life with family and NEW friends, we have seen you grow, fall, and get back up again. If you stick to your program, you will be just fine “. Today, I own a home, have a job I’ve been at for several years now, a wife that loves me, and a beautiful daughter! I couldn’t have done it accomplished where I am today, and where I’m going in the future, without the help and belief that Fern House had in me! Not every day is easy, in fact, some days are just unbearable, but I push through, without a drink, and that’s all that matters today.